Letter to Zoe, 3 1/2 Months


Dear Zoe,

This is my first letter to you, I hope the first of many. I write them as a way to preserve memories of your early days which you won’t be able to remember for yourself. As such, they are as much for me as they are for you, as these are the things one can’t imagine ever forgetting but then later on can’t seem to quite remember. They are also for the benefit of loved ones who live far away, who haven’t met you yet, and who may only see you sporadically as you grow. But most of all they are so that you will know how very much you are loved and cherished…and have been since the very beginning.


Developmentally your most recent accomplishments are grabbing onto small toys and holding onto them, bringing your two hands together to clasp, and laughing (your father nodding his head is particularly hysterical). You’ve been standing up on our laps supporting your own weight while we balance you for many weeks now – you have freakishly strong legs. Your track people walking from one side of the room to the other, especially if that person is your Daddy.


At a three months of age your personality is becoming more and more apparent as the days progress. You really are a happy baby, ready to reward anyone who talks to you with smiles. You are beginning to laugh more now as well. It’s not the laugh I would have predicted you’d have. It sound a bit like a squawking crow with laryngitis. 🙂 And while there are plenty of fussy moments as you deal with both teething (already!) and reflux, you really seem to be pretty laid back for the most part. I take you to Bible study and you sit on my lap quietly the whole time. It amuses the other ladies there because you fold your hands at your chest and look intently at whoever is speaking nodding your head from time to time, seeming wise way beyond your years.


We have the ability to capture you at this stage, both visually and audially, but I really wish we were able to somehow record what you feel like to hold. You are so soft, round, squishy and altogether cuddly. You have a way of melting into my arms and then looking at me and smiling, and its just about all I can do to keep from melting myself right then and there. You are growing so quickly that I know soon it will be a whole lot more work to hold you for so long. Already my arms are often quite sore by evening (and almost as often still are the next morning too, as you really like to be held a LOT.)  So I wish I could record this sensation now to enjoy over and over again as the years progress, but since I can’t, I remind myself often to enjoy it now while I can and to try not to worry so much about all that I am not getting done because my hands are full with a baby.


Your brother is really crazy about you. To be honest, I was worried he’d be jealous and resentful of you after you were born. But although it has been a hard adjustment going from being an only child to having to wait his turn to have his needs met so often these days, he has only good things to say about you. He calls you his cutie baby or his sweetie baby. He says you are so pretty and that you are HIS baby. He takes care of you every way he knows how and is SO gentle.

You two already look like you're in cahoots.

You two already look like you’re in cahoots.

This past weekend when you were crying in the car your father and I heard him say to you there in the back seat, “Awww, bessie, bessie, it’s going to be okay. It’s gonna be okay, bessie, bessie.” He gets very concerned when you cry and informs me that you are crying right away (even when I’m already holding you and trying to comfort you.) Eli really looks forward to the time when you will be old enough to play with him, but please, don’t go start growing up all in a rush or anything. The rest of us need to enjoy your sweet baby-ness a while longer!


With all the love you could ever possibly imagine and more,


Happy Father’s Day 2013

Dear Jeff,

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I love your patience and gentleness,

the way you can calm a hysterical baby (even when I’ve run through my bag of tricks to no avail).

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I love how you make time for your children everyday…
no matter how busy your life becomes.

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I love how you never stop being amused by Eli’s three year old antics,

and remind me to do the same when I’m tired at the end of a long day.

I am grateful that you nightly record in your journal the funny and touching things he has said that day.

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I love how you are teaching our son, through your example, how to one day be a loving, strong, supportive and caring husband and father himself. 

I am thankful to be sharing this parenting adventure with you, my best friend.

Much love always,


Zoe’s First Photodump

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It’s ironic how when there are the most things to share in my life is precisely the time when there is the least opportunity to share them. I’m still trying to get the hang of this being a parent to two children thing. Somedays I’m a bit more successful than others. Let me just say that I have the utmost respect for parents of multiples right now! 

In addition to not having much time to blog, my computer died and while I’ve been given an older laptop to use I don’t really know how to use it, and it is s…l…o…w… As in what I type is generally four seconds delayed before it shows up on the screen, and don’t even ask about the delay when one tries to scroll!  So I really don’t know how long it will be before I’m going to be present here much.

I did want to share some of these photos of Zoe. Because the laptop is not responding much to what I am trying to do I guess I’ll just leave them here all out of order. It’s either that or not publish at all. So it’s as literal of a photodump as any you’ll find. She’ll be turning 3 months in just a few days…. Hopefully at some point I’ll be able to start writing letters to my kids again here. In the meantime let me just say that Zoe is a joy! She’s a pretty laid back baby, and knows how to do some good sleeping at night, for which her mother is greatly appreciative. She doesn’t much like to be set down, but is now beginning to accept time in the swing occasionally. I love that she has hit the smiley stage and holding a conversation with her cooing back at me is a delight! Yesterday she grasped her little Sophie the giraffe teether, the first time she’s ever held onto anything. Just in time too because, as unfair as it seems, at 2.5 months this baby began the much dreaded teething process! I guess she felt to need to show up he brother who started just after turning 3 months.

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“I need a kiss…. Here…right here.”

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